I'm so tired

Last year
i try to explore myself
try to bcum ME that inside my heart
try those thing that i scared to step
try those thing that i not sure
try those that ialso dunno whether suit me or not!
i go n try it...i really try it...n i really try it for so long
but seem like don't have any good respond and feedback
seem like no one care
no one pay attention
so that i always ask myself-
' what wrong with me? am i not good enough?'
Am i really not good enough?
Am i ???

Now i'm really tired
i tired to do all those thing
i tired to bcum de real ME inside my heart
i tired 2 keep this secret....

Can i back 2 normal?
Can i delete all those thing in my mind?
Can i start a new life?