我恨我自己

我恨我自己。。。。。。
我恨我所做过的事情。。
我恨我所做过的决定。。
我不清楚是对或错。。。
我不清楚你怎么想。。。
我不清除你怎么看我。。
但我总觉得怪里怪气的。
多日来不见你的短讯。。
多日来不见你的来电。。
对我来说是不正常的。。
或许你有东西忙。。。。
或许你有你的一班朋友和同事
或许你。。。。。。。。
也或许你。。。。。。。
心中有很多个或许
来安慰自己为何不见你的短讯或来电!!!!

?伪装与否?

应该做回自己还是

应该伪装自己呢?????

sumtime is not me dun wan speak out wat in my heart
if i wan2 spoke-out....
1st thing I'll consider is "R they trusted?"

but sum of de thing I'll told u without thinking
but...now I wrong
muz think b4 spoke out
finally the TROUBLE happen on me
tell u bout de thing
after u hear juz keep in ur heart la
no need spoke bac 2 tat person
听了就算,ok!!!!!
now u spoke bac 2 tat person
den how I wanna face my fren
she call me ask whether I 'sell' him
u tell me ....how I wana answer her!!!!!

this time I really fed-up ady....
coz is not 1st time u did it
like de previous 1....
i told u bout our fren thing
den u go n tell ziraffe
so end up how????
keep talking n talking n talking by u n ziraffe
few time i cannot tahan ady and wanna scold u all...
but i didnt ...
i juz keep in my heart
juz let u all talk....
c when u all wanna stop 2 talk about it....

Boring Hari Raya Holiday:(

1st of Oct
2day suppose go Sg Wang n meet Raymond around 3 o'clock
but around 1 p.m he text me said that he can't meet me
coz he need go 2 his boss house for Hari Raya
then no choice lo...have 2 cancel it

so wat can I do?
as usual...surf net, play game, n msn...
suddenly I wonder Y teddy didn't sms me said tat she very boring
so I decide 2 sms her,,,,,
haha...noe Y she didnt sms me?
coz she said yesterday I didnt reply her msg
so she dunwan sms me also....
so both of us juz stay at home and pass our 1st day of holiday on Hari Raya!!!!
folowing thing....
u noe n i noe loh.....no need 2 speak out!!!!!
juz keep it SECRET...kaka

2nd of Oct
going 2 Midvalley n The Garden walk around n meet my fren ther
having a lunch wif my fren at Flying Chillies(The Gardens)...
after that juz walk around den go home...
after that...
suppose celebrate Girrafe birthday at Saisaki
but she dunwan 2 go.....
since v ady booking de table
so i decide 2 go wif Zmun n Teddy n without de birthday girl...
wakaka...