Conclusion of 2008

graduated early of the year
start my 1st job as interior designer
is was happy in the begining
n is was not so good in the half way
n the end.....dunno yet!
coz i still work until now.........

Middle of the year...
nth speacial... XD

End of the years...
not so good for my family
father business having a trouble
grandpa pass away... :(

Now 2008 is pass
so juz 4got de sad memory/thing
Let's memorize back the happy thing tat happen in 2008

Fren I noe in 2008:-
1. JESSICA- v noe each other almost 1 year ady
get 2 noe her when i work in 'Designedge'
both start work at the same day. She pretty,easy going,
helpful n ..........but bcoz some of the reason she left the company!
V still K.I.T n now she bcome my gym kaki, going gym 2gether after work n lepak sini lepak sana......bcoz of her i going de dance clz inside de gym (hard2 belive right....all my close fren) act i also suprise i'll go 4 it coz everytime she also ask me go 2gether wif her and finally got 1 day I 4low her...but nv try nv noe I having alot of fun ther....keke
n I grab this chance 2 thank you 4 being my GOOD fren....Honestly...my fren

2. NATALIE- if i not wrong also get 2 noe her in the same day wif Jessica. She funny, sumtime crazy sumtime serious,talk alot*:D

3. STEVE - get 2 noe this guy via internet
quite handsome but smoke alot
teach me alot of thing
tell me bout his story
and I always prepare my ear 2 listen it
n he make me think alot
think bout my future,my relationship,my....................
but anyway I'm happy get 2 noe you
Hope 2 c you soon

4. CK - get 2 noe him in 'Designedge' also
act he's my senior in my college
but v not even talk 1 word in college
n v start our 1st conversation in Designedge
coz tat 'ngam' he also work in tat company
teach me alot bout ID
THANKSssss..

*Sry for those fren I didnt mention you here.....
coz lazy 2 taip ady... :P

Please Do Something If you still want it!!!!

Hi everyone,

If you or anyone of your fren is study in University Malaya
and stay in Kolej Kediaman Ke-12
pls do sumting 2 REMAIN the chinese food stall....
for what the news i got is....

their ady sign the contract with the new tender to replace the chinese stall
*the new tender is malay oso*

they did all of this thing during the holiday,
which all the student is not in university n going bac 2 their hometown for holiday
and nobody can disagree the thing tat their trying 2 do...
So they can do whateaver thing tat they wan....
*the person tat doing those thing at ' behind ' is Malay oso......

Since the chinise food stall is the only one stall tat sell chinese food in UM
n i think u all oso dunwan everyday eating malay food!!!
SOoooo every1....
Pls do sumting 2 REMAIN the chinse food stall...

*If u r not study in UM juz tell ur fren which is study in UM...

Regards
:)

星光殞落

今早看报纸时，
在娱乐版看到了这一则消息

"星光3黎礎寧　自殺身亡 "

如有收看<<超级星光大道>>的朋友们都应该知道她是谁吧!!!

当我看到这则消息是

我当场愣了一下

很惊讶。。。

很矛盾。。。

很难过。。。

真的替她感到惋惜

一个好女生。。。

一把好声音。。。

从此就在这地球上消失了。。。。

:(

很无奈的。。。

在最后跟你说声"一路好走"

*真不明白为何某些人有这股勇气去自杀

反而没勇气活下来呢!!!

我恨我自己

我恨我自己。。。。。。
我恨我所做过的事情。。
我恨我所做过的决定。。
我不清楚是对或错。。。
我不清楚你怎么想。。。
我不清除你怎么看我。。
但我总觉得怪里怪气的。
多日来不见你的短讯。。
多日来不见你的来电。。
对我来说是不正常的。。
或许你有东西忙。。。。
或许你有你的一班朋友和同事
或许你。。。。。。。。
也或许你。。。。。。。
心中有很多个或许
来安慰自己为何不见你的短讯或来电!!!!

?伪装与否?

应该做回自己还是

应该伪装自己呢?????

sumtime is not me dun wan speak out wat in my heart
if i wan2 spoke-out....
1st thing I'll consider is "R they trusted?"

but sum of de thing I'll told u without thinking
but...now I wrong
muz think b4 spoke out
finally the TROUBLE happen on me
tell u bout de thing
after u hear juz keep in ur heart la
no need spoke bac 2 tat person
听了就算,ok!!!!!
now u spoke bac 2 tat person
den how I wanna face my fren
she call me ask whether I 'sell' him
u tell me ....how I wana answer her!!!!!

this time I really fed-up ady....
coz is not 1st time u did it
like de previous 1....
i told u bout our fren thing
den u go n tell ziraffe
so end up how????
keep talking n talking n talking by u n ziraffe
few time i cannot tahan ady and wanna scold u all...
but i didnt ...
i juz keep in my heart
juz let u all talk....
c when u all wanna stop 2 talk about it....

Boring Hari Raya Holiday:(

1st of Oct
2day suppose go Sg Wang n meet Raymond around 3 o'clock
but around 1 p.m he text me said that he can't meet me
coz he need go 2 his boss house for Hari Raya
then no choice lo...have 2 cancel it

so wat can I do?
as usual...surf net, play game, n msn...
suddenly I wonder Y teddy didn't sms me said tat she very boring
so I decide 2 sms her,,,,,
haha...noe Y she didnt sms me?
coz she said yesterday I didnt reply her msg
so she dunwan sms me also....
so both of us juz stay at home and pass our 1st day of holiday on Hari Raya!!!!
folowing thing....
u noe n i noe loh.....no need 2 speak out!!!!!
juz keep it SECRET...kaka

2nd of Oct
going 2 Midvalley n The Garden walk around n meet my fren ther
having a lunch wif my fren at Flying Chillies(The Gardens)...
after that juz walk around den go home...
after that...
suppose celebrate Girrafe birthday at Saisaki
but she dunwan 2 go.....
since v ady booking de table
so i decide 2 go wif Zmun n Teddy n without de birthday girl...
wakaka...

Don't laugh....

Don't laugh if anything wrong wif my english translation...
kekeke
coz sum of my fren duno chinese...
so i translate all my blog from chinese to english
but my english is not tat good...
tell me if anything wrong!!!!

勉强没幸福(No Happiness If Reluctantly)

一段不会有结果的恋情，
A relationship that wont have result,
就算勉强也不会有幸福的。。。。。
even reluctantly, u oso wont get happiness 1.....

一个别人已拥有的他，
sumone ady bookmark and ady hold tat person in his hand,
你把他抢过来了有如何，
wat for v go n fight 4 ourself,
到手了。。但他的心不在你这里
after succeed..but tat person heart is not on urside
到最后受罪的是谁?
in the end who is the one suffer in the hardship?

那倒不如趁早放手
y v dun drops as early as possible
免得让自己受苦，
to avoid the suffer of hardship
因为这种滋味真的不好受
bcoz this taste really does not feel better
但试问有谁这么容易放得下呢?
but who can such easy able to lay down?

Confuse X(

Nearly 21 yo
but still confuse what de thing i want
what de thing tat i need
im lost....im really lost
lost for my future
lost in my job
lost myself...
wher am i???
who am i?

told every1 tat i giv myself a time 2 do tis job
but isit really suit me?
in my mind...
tis job definitely is not suit me
but what can i work as if i quit this....

for my fren
i thing u all can feel the way i treat urs is different then b4
bcoz i oso feel tat on my side
especially teddy
sumtime i speak loud 2 u
like u said....dun care urs anymore
i oso duno who i am now!!!
i not de jeen yang tat urs noe b4...

Y i bcome like that
i keep asking and asking myself
mayb i stress

mayb my mood is unstable
mayb i really lost..

..LOST..
...LOST...
....I'm LOST....

忽然之间(Lyrics)

忽然之间
天昏地暗
世界可以忽然什么都没有
我想起了你
再想到自己
我为什么总在非常脆弱的时候
怀念你

我明白太放不开你的爱
太熟悉你的关怀分不开
想你算是安慰还是悲哀
而现在就算时针都停摆
就算生命像尘埃分不开
我们也许反而更相信爱

如果这天地
最终会消失
不想一路走来珍惜的回忆
没有你

莫名其妙的感伤

August, 29

在放工回家的路上，
on the way going back home,
突然有一股想哭的冲动，
suddenly feel like crying,
我也搞不懂我本身发生了什么事，
i oso duno wat happen on me
always think alot
当下真的很想哭，
at tat moment i really wan2 cry
可是哭不出来，
but cant
眼泪只在眼眶里打转，
my tears not much enuf,it din drop out
很想找个人来发发牢骚，
wana find sumone 2 talk
第一时间想到的就是你，
1st ppl in my mind is YOU
可是拨给你。。
but call 2 u
又不知从何说起，
wher shud i start
又怕干扰到你，
scare disturbing u
又怕你说我神经病，
scare u said i'm crazy
bcoz it no reason tat im call u
所以最后选择不拨电给你，
finally I din call u
而选择自己去面对.........
i choose 2 be face it myself.........

Malacca One Day Trip

August, 24

跟朋友去了马六甲，

但其实大家都搞不清去那儿是为了什么，

由于说好了，那就去loh...

免得让人有话柄loh!!!!!!

其实说来还真有点后悔去了马六甲，

因为.......

我的妈呀!!!!

那里的天气真的热到个不行。。。

况且也没什么消遣。

说来你都不信，

由于距离晚餐的时间还有好几个小时，

逛也逛完了，可以吃的也都吃了，
所以我们一行人决定选择看一场电影来打发我们的时间，
可笑吧!!!!

hahahahahaha

我们的午餐

err...虽然说是驰名

但本人觉得还好也，没什么特别!!

就是为了这一顿饭，

我们选择了看一场电影，

事实上是不值得的.....

因为这间餐厅的食物也称不上很好吃!!!!

这就是我们一行四个人啦.........

感想(Feeling)

短短的半年
Half year period
经历了很多很多东西
gone thru many many thing
认识了一班同事
knew 1 gang of colleague
吸收了很多知识
absort alot of knowledge
学会了如何处事待人
learned how to treat ppl matters
学会了如何承担
learned how to undertake
但。。。还未学会如何放下!!!
but...hasn'n learned how 2 lay down
看清了人情冷暖
saw clearly the human sentiment
看清了是是非非
saw clearly the right and wrong
但。。。却还看不清自己!!!
but...still haven saw clearly myself!!!
承受了很多压力
withstood many of pressures
因为承受不了，
bcoz of withstanding,
所以我选择退出
i decide 2 quit
曾试过告诉自己要撑下去
told myself b4 juz support it
尝试过。。
I've try..
但真的办不到
but I really cant make it
非常抱歉
really sorry
无论如何，
watever is it,
感谢你们给的一切。。。
thanks for u all...

My Final Decision

Few day b4....
still thinking bout leave o stay
but among this few day
alot of thing cum 2 me
make me damn fed-up
n damn emotinal....

Today.....

Finally I make a decision,
make a decision to leave,

leave from the all the unhappy thing......

I'm not sure isit good to be leaving

but I dun care......

but for sure after leaving I'll be happy

no more unstable emotion

no more stress.....

等待

心中永远放不下的那个他。。。

每天上网时都希望他也在线上，
很可惜的已经整整快两个星期没在线上遇见他。
说好了空闲时找他一块去晚餐，
可惜我没这个勇气拨这通电话。

天啊!!!!!
好痛苦呀。。。
我该如何是好???

心情(3)

What the hell is going on???
bcz of this project make all of us damn piss off...
whole project ongoing without any system
keep amend, waiting n changing
WHAT FOR!!!

Bcz of no system
we need to start prepare everything today
and the deadline is after 1mth
but alot of thing is haven start
so you think we can finish before the deadline
i think is very hard!!!

So everyone..
OT is waiting for me already..
Pls pray for me...

心情(2)

"成长-->结婚-->生子-->逝世"
我想每个人都应该必须经历的过程，
试问有人能选择不遵守这个游戏吗?
也许现在谈这个问题对我来说是言之过早吧!
但对于还未确定走哪条路的我是时候该想想这个问题了!
向左走?向右走?还是选择向中间走?
到目前为止还未有一个明确的答案!!!!
或许应该体验和感受一下方可得到一个结论，
或许我能从中发现另一面的我也不一定，
所谓"世事无绝对"

无题

18 July 2008

本应出席学院的毕业典礼，
但我和另一位朋友选择了不出席，
因为彼此都不想去应酬、去卖笑、去见一些不想见的人等等。。。。
很多朋友知道后都问我为何不出席?
我的答案:因为不想去lor!!!

这就是我。。。。
一个懒得应酬的人，
一个活在自己世界的人，
一个正在等待有人能开启我心中那把锁的人。。。。

心情(1)

一向习惯自己一人的我，
突然觉得很孤单，很空虚，
难道是时候找个人来爱爱吗?

突然希望能
----有个人能听听我发牢骚，
----有个人在我难过或伤心时来给我安慰，
----有个人能给我呵护和关心，

到底这个人何时会出现呢?
也或许这是我短暂的感觉而已呢?

Time to Change

Company system change,
Means is time to change myself,

Change to be more independent, confident, mature and.....

But....

for me, it's really a big challenge!!!

Because I know what I have and what I don't have!!!

And I know you all want me learn thing faster coz don't want me fall backwardness

But....

PLS give me sometime!!!!
Because I know my 'digestion ability' is limited,

And I can't absorp so much thing in a short time,

But....

I will try my best !!!

惨。。。

前天早上的我 ~ 身体不舒服。。。

前天下午的我 ~ 很不幸的，被车门夹到我的中指!!!

昨天的我 ~ 伤风了一整天。。。

终结来说就是一个字~~~~~~惨!!!

无助

最近的我不知为何，心情总是怪怪的，
总处于非常低落和伤心的情绪。。。
是家庭事吗? 不是
是工作上有问题吗? 不是
是感情上有问题吗? 也不是

可能因为这个人的出现，令我在情绪上有180度的转变!!
打从认识他一直到他的出现和见面后，
我的心情可说是五味杂陈，
他让我觉得那边的世界对我来说是非常的陌生，
可说是完全一窍不通，
他形容我就像是一张白纸一样,
未经过任何人的破坏，还完美无瑕，
这点我承认, 因为我还未有勇气踏出我的第一步!
我时常在想到底那里的世界是否适合我?
因为一旦踏入后就无路可退了，
虽然在我脑海里尚未出现任何让我印象深刻或疯狂的事情!
我也承认我的生活是平凡了些，
如你问我是否甘心，我一定是不甘心的!!!
但我真的没这个勇气!

此刻的我真的很想大哭一场，
因为我真的感觉到非常的无助，
如我的眼泪能像水龙头一样说开就开，说关就关那多好啊!
起码我能暂时哭掉所有的烦恼，
如不的话，
持续下去，我看忧郁症应该离我不远了!!

傷心 (Sad)。。。

19/06/2008

不知为何，當晚的心情非常的不好，
Don't know why, my mood is totally bad at that night,
可能因為還在公司加班﹐
maybe I still work OT at office,
那時的我真的快哭出來了﹐
at that moment, I really feel like want to cry,
因為一切不好的事情都出现在我脑海里，
because everything bad is appear in my mind,
那时的我真的很想告诉老板我不幹了﹐
at that moment, I feel like telling my boss that I want to resign,
但我並沒有這樣做,
but at last, I think do that,
到最後我去找老闆談天﹐
Finally I go and find my boss and have a talk。。。。
以抒發我心中的不忿﹐
把我所有的不滿都說出來了﹐
因為有些是事情是不吐不快的。。。。

抒發出我內心不滿的事情後﹐
After have a talk with boss,
我的心情當下也變得好多了。。。
my mood feel better already。。。
而他們也會討論關於我的要求﹐
and their also will discuss about my request,
然後給我一個答案!!
and give me an answer!!
但無論結果如何﹐
Whatever how is end-up,
我會給我自己六個月的時間待在這間公司﹐
I will give myself 6mth time to work in this company,
看這間是否真的適合我﹐
see whether this company isit really suitable for me,
如不﹐
if not,
就只好再另作打算loh!!!!
will plan after that loh!!!!

我是(I am)。。。。

一个看似很开朗的人，
a person that looked like very open and bright ,
一个整天都在想东想西和烦恼的人，
a person that always west thinks to think,
一个还正在摸索自己的人，
a person that still trying to find out myself,

一个还未确定自己想要什么的人，
a person that still haven confirm what I want,

一个担心如果一旦做错了决定会误了自己一生的人。。。。。
a person that scare will make a wrong decision and destroy my whole life.....
-_-

有谁能替我解忧?
Anyone can help me ?

有谁能替我分担一下我的烦恼?
Anyone can shares my worry ?

有谁能将我的希望点燃?
Anyone can light up my life?

有谁能将我从谷底拉回出来?
Anyone can pull me back from the hell?

有谁能带我到彩色的世界?
Anyone can bring me a colorful world?

有谁???

Anyoneeeeeeeeeee???